Pink Lemonade

The last day of year , looks it just started and so soon its ending , could not   believe only , happiness , sorrows , joy , love all came in way , passed over with the time , alas! Nothing is permanent , nothing is forever , was watching Anand   yester night ,   dyeing Anand says whatever comes it has to end .so true whatever has started it would finish .last year on this day I was with my family ,was counting days to come to us   now same day but different people , strange faces became so known . Never thought in life that I would meet those people, but they came in life, as they came in life so many already left. Number of times tried to catch the past and wanted to know the future     , always knew it’s impossible. Tonight I do not want to write about me , I want to write about life ,and time , these two things always make me worry nothing else, yeah not even death, the speed of time it always makes me worries , I never want to grow up, when I was a kind I wanted to grow   up f...

After long back returning to my own blog , it feels awesome and very regretful that I got that much busy that i could not update my blog , anyways after reading old posts , it feels , time is moving real fast , that 's what professor asked me find a near real time processor blah blah .But i have so many complaints from this time , when i wanted it to move slow it always runs so fast , when i want it to be faster it always seems deprecating . well sometimes all of us think to hold of it , it might sound weird but not so weird , I am looking for a time machine , in some moment of your life all of you must have thought to find a time machine is'nt it . Human nature , how to cope up with that always greed to get , however , how much he has , but always lurking for ,that he does not have . I always fascinate to see how people live in illusions , let me tell you i just love this word and you may find it in all of my posts( oh damn i gotta do assignment but can't concentrate ...

Every   single drop of   pain Oozing through   my vein Running as blood , so pure The pain , I never want to cure I enjoy it, cherish this feeling Pain only take away from healing The happiness of conquering   the pain More exotic than any droplet of rain I don’t feel anything worldly mundane Cherishing the wounds, me an insane Every single moment of pain making me immortal I be   with you   always , that’s the betrothal Each shred of time , ill feel you again Everyday , every money   getting closer to pain. …………………………………………………………..vaishali

Those lost moments I search In the every moment of life Where I find them, how? Did I write them in my old pages Or kept them in some cages Searching in the mob of world I wish I could find them there How much I cherished them Somehow I could share Can’t see them like illusion Can’t touch them like hallucination Every moment of today, feels like déjà vu Don’t know, how much of it is true Dwelling in illusions, cringing fear Running in the past just like void   Hard to believe ,but I am paranoid .        

Desire of my happiness, turning into dark gloom dead realities,hurting pain shattered that i assumed going over and over world is strange everyday restless i am , to go somewhere escape from my agony, away from all shattering days bleeding heart, wounded soul no angle come to console the lonely paths taking me away traces of past, indelible memories dwelling in dream, untold stories ..........................................vaishali

The Broken String The haunting illusions of you The frozen mist on the window The long loneliness without you The dark hovering shadow The longing for touch of you Music of silence which I Hear in the night of agony Twilight moon peeping through My window, making it gloomy I remember the melody once you played ,deep darkest bloomy Water droplets scattered all around Sobbing On the edges of my fringe How to play now with broken string. ……………………………………………..vaishali

A video that I find very soothing and beautiful, I just tried my hand in movie making thought why not to make a new way to express myself , so here it goes.

A frozen tear in lonely eyes Searching for happiness in Direful melancholic sky Engrossed thoughts of gone How many? Unable to reckon The mist of sadness, smeared The grail of love have been shattered Unquenchable desire of past, to regain How much? The past is vain Vanishing dreams leaving reminiscence Insatiable longing, my inheritance Craving of happiness, sound of my sigh The dark pain , painted my enormous sky. ………………………………………………………………….vaishali

Sometimes being awake I search you in my loneliness The memories of past, the blurred Mirror, In the forgotten love’s trace The crawling silence, Empty Street I search the past, on the unknown ways The forgotten story, the faded glory The picture’s color become haze Dreams of midnight, the sky high Lyre’s sound, I sway in daze You were here in arms of an angel Who loved you with so much craze Me searching you, in sound of sea In melody of memories with the blasé The running world, the dying feeling I don’t find you anywhere, but once You were here in my happiness. …………………………………………………vaishali

THE WORLD OF LONELINESS where i would go in the world of loneliness where would i get solace i search a caring caress my unknown desires ask me to go away from this bleak world no more to live in this heaven caged soul , feels to fly my dried eyes want to cry the echo of hollowness where i would find the completeness the edges of darkness spread all away where to search a small ray to erase darkness dieing soul of mine ,rare is liveliness running through the ages of hell i walk alone in search of heavenliness. ......................................vaishali saral

The world is strange and we all are strangers, still something is there that we tend to appeal each other , it may be the emotions , feelings , or do they really exist? sometimes it does feel and sometime u feel nothing is there, hmm or i would say there is no limit of desires , what i had left to achieve something that suddenly started to fascinate me,now what i have got doesnt feel so nice as it used to feel earlier, hmmm , this make me human being , otherwise i wudnt have been,